"Stoof-ville," my fair wedding, and phantom.

DISCLAIMER: There's grammatical/spelling/punctuation/capitalization errors... once again i do not care.

part one: Steven and i helped his brother and his girlfriend move into their new place. HOLY, it's like a mansion!! Ok ok so i helped a bit, not a lot. i lifted SOME stuff. but hey, "My Fair Wedding" was on TV and i don't have that channel. MOVING ON, the move was pretty cool. did some exploring n stuff. that was fun.

part two: ok so i normally never watch "reality TV" because i feel like i lose 100 IQ points every time i watch. i also normally don't watch "reality wedding shows" because i have basic cable that goes up to channel 29.
i go over to Steven's house just to watch MY FAIR WEDDING every Saturday. for some reason I'll be neutral during the beginning but I'll be super happy for the bride by the end of the episode! is that weird? i mean its not like I'M the bride. and David Tutera is so awesome... wow... what Marriage God blessed our planet with David? if i had enough money to have him do MY wedding, oooooh boy! I've got way too many ideas in my head!

part 3: i got a snippet of a PHANTOM OF THE OPERA INSPIRED WEDDING!
and then i left prematurely to go to Steven's brother's place ;__; so now at some point during this week I MUST SEE IT.

came home earlier and now i am drop dead tired!!

Dolphin dreams and the taiji dophin hunts

I took a midday nap (still sick) and dreamt there was a dolphin that I saved from the Taiji fishermen. it was a dolphin bloodbath .. the water and the docks were drenched in the blood of many spinner dolphins, bottle-nosed dolphins, striped dolphins, and pilot whales... in the end i could only sneak in and carry one female out... her poor skin was so dried out and i remember pouring a bottle of water over her skin so that it was wet and rubbery again. I quickly carried her out of the cove as fast as i could and slipped her into the water, but she didn't want to leave because her baby was still in the cove. and i woke up crying :| that feeling is not a good feeling...

Anyway you can probably tell that I'm strongly opposed to the dolphin hunts, "tradition" or not.

I like dolphins. SORT OF DIGRESSING: When I reached grade three i came across the 'dolphin diaries' series from Scholastic. I learned so much about dolphins and they were cute, so because of that (very shallow) reason that they were cute, they were my favourite (aside from them being intelligent).
Then one day in the 6th grade my dad was telling me one of his stories about him fleeing Vietnam since he was a boat person. I knew that he fled Vietnam via boat, but he didn't tell me the other part because he didn't think it was too important; he was rescued by a pod of dolphins. I say the word "rescued," but really all he did was "steer the boat and followed them to Malaysia," but "rescued" sounds a lot better don't you think? So anyway he was saved, so technically if they didn't show up i wouldn't have been born and my dad probably would been killed by pirates.

moving on, that's the main reason why i am against the dolphin hunts.

second reason is because they're killing them for meat. ok that's fine and dandy and all HOWEVER they've got a large fish market for pete's sake. ALSO, the government is paying these fishermen to put this contaminated mercury-meat on the market. BASICALLY, you're poisoning and killing your own people. smart. :\

so those are my two main reasons why I'm opposed.

anyway, i get a lot of nightmares :| should probably do something about that.

Sick as a dog and bright green. and beginning to smell!

For some odd reason I've got a skit by Rowen Atkinson stuck in my head. hence the title of the blog... roughly quoted from Fatal beatings.
Yet again today i don't care about how I'm typing. i am still sick.

This morning my mom made me shovel the snow... after i told her i was sick :| and she also took pictures of me shovelling instead of actually doing anything. um...

sorry what was that about listening to your elders? you should still listen even if they're wrong and being unfair? OK I'll do it at the expense of my health.

Moving on, i made myself a hot lime&honey drink... that went cold because i got called out to shovel snow.

Now that i am inside.. i am cold, my breath reeks (even after gurgling Listerine and salt water, and brushing my teeth), my throat is sore and my head is slightly pounding, but going away. and i am typing this from within the comforts of my bed. hurrhurr.....

i got more reading done, now i am well past the middle of AC's Renaissance. a metal band called Altair followed me on twitter. i listened to some of their stuff and now i am convinced that the main singer is Roy khan who travelled back in time to send his younger self back into our time... because he sounds almost the same. :| i was also convinced that i should follow them on twitter. Hey Altair, your first album comes out soon, yeah? oh OK, i can be a hipster and be all like "oh i listened to them before they came out."

I'm also convinced that i should finish reading Renaissance and Brotherhood soon so i can finish and read the third book which has Altair in it. hm. i kinda wanna pick up painting again, but now i can't stop doing seascapes... and i wanna learn how to paint underwater seascapes. like Boris Vallejo. His work is amazing.

i should also probably start that new years resolution.

Xmas party, Les Mis review, and how my day went.

I'm sick. keeping it short.

-So yesterday at an Xmas party, i got coughed on. Steven's cousin was sick and he coughed on me and my things and in my face. so now i am sick. and i don't even want to attempt to correct all my typos... grammar/punctuation/spelling... i just can not find two fucks to give. throat is hurting so badly.

-Saw Les Miserable in theatres today. i give it a 7/10. stars of the show were amazing. few things..
> camera work was amazing. who was the creative genius?
> Anne Hathaway... wow.. you were amazing, you made me cry...SO HARD ... that i had a headache the rest of the movie... beginning to end! PLEASE star in more musicals!
> Hugh Jackman... wow... Mr wolverine can SING? i never knew that... you wowed my fiance too! you are forever his favourite! i didn't recognize you at the beginning of the show i was like... "who was that?? OH IT'S HUGH??!" wow.
> Amanda Seyfried, i knew you could sing, but i never knew you could belt out such an angelic voice!
> Russell Crowe... you played your part so well...! Loved you as a bad guy! Can't wait to see you in Broken City!
> Sacha Baron Cohen (i did a double take, i thought my eyes were deceiving me! you should consider doing more serious roles) and Helena Bonham Carter .. YOU TWO WERE HILARIOUS! (did my research a few seconds ago.. i didn't know Sacha was in Sweeney Todd either o-o wow I'm blind)
> Isabelle Allen.. you are perfect! how they found you i will never know, but you are PERFECT!
> Samantha... you brought me back to the days of high school when were were all forced to sing your part for music class. but you made it ten times better. :) props.
> they had a boat at the beginning. and my inner mermaid was like.. :SQUEE!:

- i passed my classes for graduation! AWE yissssss!!
- discussed condos vs townhouses with dad.. he decided to digress about scammers. yes dad, we understand, we need to do more research and learn the lingo and read the fine print and also understand what they're doing. but i wanna know which would be better to purchase :\ instead you go on about the problems of each. WELL THEN we might as well live in a cardboard box =_=; when i ask for help, i want proper help. gosh, is that so hard?

- watched a bit of the Simpsons episode where Lisa and her best friend created a world called "equalia"? and then i thought.. wow, that's what i do with MY friends. we use our imaginations! imagination is not dead :)

welp, off to read assassin's creed and sleep early!

Cirque du Soleil: Worlds Away 3D - Review

The title is self explanatory. I went to do see it!

Now, a little synopsis of the film courtesy of IMDb:

"A young woman is entranced by an Aerialist. When they fall [literally, fall into a gaping hole in a ground] into the dreamlike world of Cirque du Soleil and are separated, they travel through the different tent worlds trying to find each other. "

There's 7 worlds that they go into, which is basically 7 Cirque du Soleil performances; Viva Elvis, Beatles Love, and Ka were the ones I recognized, and the other ones I didn't recognize but they were awesome/sexy/mermaid-squee-worthy.

I'll talk about  few that I loved the most, but let me put this out there first; I loved the use of the water! And the swimming! -biased opinion- Anyway I don't seem to remember a lot of it now... I remember very few scenes, so let me just jot them all down here.

-So at the beginning of the first world, clowns. Ok. I hate clowns. But for the sake of this, I'm not gonna make a big deal out of it. There were swimmers, and people seemingly walking into a pool of water, and then swimming in it, and then 4 Asian girls performing acrobatic moves on top of the water which was the most coolest thing ever! After them there was a boat structure with people dressed as though they were skinless, so just muscle... they kinda looked like they were corpses. The thing I didn't like about this one particular show (besides clowns) was when the blue pool at the beginning turned red... it looked like blood. And then a red foot came out from the water (synchronized swimmer) as it they were swimming in the blood... that was scary...

-Then it transitioned into the next world of Ka (I freaked out so bad when they did this scene because they did this exact one for CSI: LAS VEGAS!! :squee!:...I know, I freaked out for all the wrong reasons) ...i just enjoyed this :) the wheel of death was awesome too!

-I recall this one scene of the Aerialist meeting with a bunny head. but then the bunny head flipped upside down on himself so that the bunny ears were the legs... and it was walking... looking up at the moon that turned into water, and a girl was swimming in a circular tub of water. her movements were so graceful and it looked so sensual. And then the Aerialist  jumped into the moon.. but the moon was a pool of water... SO BEAUTIFUL! The moon was like.. GLOWING TURQUOISE.

-They had ELVIS AND THE BEATLES SONGS! I was dancing in my seat!! (I've never seen the shows but I've heard how amazing they were).

-Another scene there was this weird KKK dude. UM... this part was especially scary for me, although i don't remember much of it. Throughout the whole thing, it was just music and very little dialogue. but this one scene was so intense for me... the girl screamed "HELP." I kept thinking, "how can this very simple thing make this particular scene so intense?" Wow... great job to whoever thought of this. It really did make it more intense! Then they did this one thing where people were on the rooftops and partying kind of like that one scene in Mary Poppins (Step in time)

- The most memorable scene for me was when they did a scene of the Aerialist UNDERWATER WITH JELLYFISH!!

-They went back into the world of Ka, and there were crustaceans and falling gravel stuff (this part I did not see on CSI, but they did mention that the gravel for the show is not real gravel. Thanks CSI. I forgot about it till now.)

-Final scene was when they "found love in a hopeless place" (cough. sorry the opportunity presented itself to me. moving on.) It was like they were underwater again! blue pillars.. like Atlantis and stuff.. and I really loved their interaction with each other <3 Good job, you two!

Overall it was the most magical thing I've ever seen! I gotta get me to a real show though.
Props to all the wonderful people who brought this together, and the performers, and the costume/makeup people, and the stars of the show, and the directors, and producers :)

8 stars out of 10!

Christmas Eve

I never do family house parties. But yesterday was fun :)

There were quite a few adults there, and my mom made me take some fancy pictures. Then all of the boys arrived (little sister's boyfriend, my childhood-family friend, and Steven). And took some more pictures.

We ate a bit, talked over the loud Vietnamese Xmas music, and then the lot of us (little sis, her boyfriend, my niece, Steven, and said-friend) went down stairs to play with blox... Which got very competitive and very intense. Of course I lost all of those games lol... guests arrived at 7 and we played.. until 11:30. By then, we already lost track of time .__.

Adults were still at it with karaoke (what Asian party doesn't have karaoke?).

At 11:45 we opened up our presents early. And I got to change out of my clothes at some point.

I received a cute (but over-sized) bracelet from my friend (for some reason i don't fit normal sized jewellery), and a mint green sweater with pearls attached to the shoulders from forever21 and two bandeaus (one lacy turquoise colour, and one nude) from my mom that I helped her pick out.
EDIT: my older sister stole my nude bandeau...

From Steven I received a card with a large block of text. He ran out of room to write on the card so he attached a piece of paper to it! He's so funny... Anyway prior to the party he took me out to Swiss chalet for lunch, and shoppers to buy me some red hair dye and Burt's Bees tinted lip balm. That's his gift to me :) I needed those badly...

Also, I downloaded a free app from Disney and got a Finding Nemo game that allows you to grow your own coral reef! So cute!

Ah and now, today I clean up more of yesterday's mess, grab a bite to eat, and watch Cirque du Soleil 3D.

Hectic Holydays

Hola!

So yesterday the festivities began for me.

In the morning, I prepared food for today's house party for my mother, cleaned, and went to a company luncheon at Bombay Palace (Brampton) with Steven. Now normally I don't eat Indian food, but this place is the best Indian buffet ever. It feels like you're inside an old English mansion in a Bollywood movie!

After that, we drove back to our area and went to the doctors to see about my headache. It's really weird... my headache doesn't really feel like a headache (it feels like blood rushing to my head and lasts for about 2-3 seconds), and it only happens when I'm cocking my head on the left side, or when I'm lying down on my left side. Doctor says I have to keep a journal for a month to monitor my headaches because it's too risky to make me go to a CT scan. So far it still only happens when I'm lying down on my left side. She then checked my blood pressure. It's back to normal but I still have to monitor it. Then she gave me my blood test results and i seem to look fine, but my white blood cells are very low. So I'm gonna have to boost it back up. I gotta change my diet around AGAIN...? =__=;

Afterwards I went to a friend's birthday/karaoke party. Her house party was fun. :) We played MAFIA. I remember doing something similar in high school drama class. I got to be the narrator and mafia... so many times. And then at one point I got myself killed... that was fun. I liked being narrator the most because I just pictured scenes from CSI episodes... at one point Steven died and I had to come up with scenarios, time frames, and locations of the crime scenes.
His first death was a single bullet shot to the head, crime scene was inside his house, and he died at midnight. His second death was asphyxiation... he drowned inside a large fish tank at a stripper club at 5 in the morning and was found at 7 in the morning

:oh God, I'm morbid:.

We then headed out for karaoke, which was quite fun, but the place didn't have Nightwish or Kamelot songs. Oh well. Old Evanescence, songs from Madonna's 'Ray of Light' album, and Phantom of the Opera had to do. And a few Disney songs. I picked Under the Sea, and there in the background were performing dolphins inside a tiny concrete pool :[ I do not approve. BIG TURN OFF. But MOVING ON.
Biggest shock of the night was when Steven SANG. Now for those that have gone with me to karaoke with Steven, and those who hear me say "Steven can't sing," well, this shut me up for good. HE WAS PRACTICING BEHIND MY BACK O-O and now he can sing.... only R&B songs. But this. Wow. It was a big improvement.

I left prematurely so I could get some sleep for today.

Today, I had to help my mom and dad prep for this evening's dinner party. I cut up some cuttlefish for cuttlefish/egg-drop soup (we rarely eat cuttlefish, but when we do it's a treat!), swept the whole house, did laundry...
And now I'm done all we needed to do. Now I am going to hang out with my lovely man until 4pm (within that time we need to stop by Shoppers Drugmart and stop by his place for him to dress up), go back home to shower, pick up the pizza at 6pm, dress up, and help host.

Tomorrow I spend Christmas Eve with Steven :3 ... and on Xmas day I go to his grandparents place. Then on the 29th, I go to a dinner with a few friends to celebrate a late Xmas.

BUSYBUSYBUSY! And next week is new years. SO I think I'm gonna write a new year's resolution.

Rise of the Antichrist Party

Alright, so it's been nearly a full day. And the world has not ended ;) yet.
I jest.

It's been snowing the entire day, so I am assuming that...
1) Hell froze over.
2) Santa Claus sacrificed himself and his reindeers to save everyone from mass extinction, and that was his ultimate gift.

I jest again.

Winter is now officially here, and we can have a white Christmas!

Today was not very eventful. I played my tiny collection of metal, did chores for about... maybe 6 hours? In between I took breaks and made some phone calls for appointments... talked to my dad about finding a place for officer penguin...(actually let's just call him Steven).

Steven and I are trying to find a place. Everything seems to be flying by so fast... anyway instead of talking to a mortgage broker we're gonna talk to my dad, because he knows terminology, and, from his past experience with a broker, he tells us that some brokers scam and that he fell victim to one. Aw, he doesn't want the same fate to fall on our heads. :3

Moving on, what else did I do today...? Oh, yesterday i finished watching CSI Miami.

CBS, HOW COULD YOU END THE SERIES PREMATURELY?
* Apparently their excuse they gave was there was way too many CSI shows? um.... *
NO. THERE IS NEVER "WAY TOO MANY"!

Now I'll never see how Calleigh is as a mommy ;__;
And I'll never see Delko fight for her affections!
I'll neeever get to see Ryan and Walter act as the two stooges ;__;
AND WHAT ABOUT ESTABAN? WHAT ABOUT VOGUL??
WHAT ABOUT THE GRANDMAAA??

And they'll NEVER EVER EVERR EVERRRRR GET BACK TOGETHER......
*Rant end*

Well, I should be eating soon. Later on, I get to pick up my glasses and one last Xmas gift.

I don't always tell people I listen to metal... but when I do...

I'll be in the middle of listening to Nightwish/Amaranthe/Kamelot/Linkin Park and they'll give me this shocked expression.

O__O WHAAAAT?

Yes. I do listen to it. However let me just put this out there... I'm very picky about my music. I mean these 4 are the only artists I listen to :| and they all fit my criteria. None of them have ever make me shrink away in horror. All of them I find are very tasteful.
If I listen to metal, it has to be... oh it's so hard to describe. I'll just write down my list of criteria.

-I like use of symphonies.
-I like the incorporation of choirs.
-I like clean female vocals.
-I like incorporation of synthesizers (but it has to not take away from the music, it has to add to it. so SUE ME).
-I like clean male vocals.
-I like some harsh vocals (but it has to be minimal otherwise I can't understand a single thing they're saying).
-I like artists that have concept albums because it shows that they have a creative mind that goes beyond music. They use their music to tell a story.

It's so hard to find artists that fit my criteria. So after much thought, and many artists later, I realized I only like symphonic/cinematic metal, progressive metal, power metal, neoclassical metal, and alternative/nu metal. These are really only the sub genres of metal that I like.

Why not the rest? Why don't I listen to other type of metal? WELL. Like I said. I'm just too picky.
I'm sure there are more bands that I would listen to that do fit my criteria (ones that I haven't listened to), but at the moment I am quite content with my selection of music (unless you've got more to suggest, I'd be happy to give them a listen).

But anyway, that's not what I wanted to talk about today. Today I want to talk about a short conversation I had with a guy...

This guy, like every other person, gives me this shocked expression 'YOU LISTEN TO METAL??'
I have no idea why they always give me this shocked look :\ but I was just about to find out. So like always, I nod my head nonchalantly.

This next remark really peeved me. He says "YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE THE TYPE!"
EXCUSE ME, but You don't have to dress any particular way to appreciate art! That would be like saying "No, you cannot come into this art museum because your lipstick isn't the right shade of red to enjoy anything we have." It's not a logical conclusion considering that art whether visual, textile, or auditory, transcends our own initial impressions of the piece. Art has layers like people do. Hence you can't judge someone's tastes based on appearance.

Now with that said, a fraction of the Nightwish fandom are always posting comments saying how Anette (previous singer) doesn't dress the part as a metal singer like Tarja (WAY OLD Nightwish singer) and how Floor (the new singer) does.. Suddenly FEMALE ARTISTS are obligated to DRESS a certain way to perform/sing for you people?

*** Btw, I like all three. I respect them as singers and artists. Is that so bad? Is that a sin? :( ***

What about Elize from Amaranthe and occasional performer for Kamelot? She just wears a sweater, some slacks, and the occasional mask onstage, and a nice dress or some jeans with a fashionable shirt for music videos.

**BTW I love you too Elize!! **

The irony here is that they don't like it when the more mainstream/popular singers dress a certain way to appeal to their audience. :\ 

WELL WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW, FOOLS?

Alright, rant ending.

Lunch time!

End of the world?

So a friend of mine (let's call her Mama Jrock) attended a lecture at U of T 10 days ago. The lecture was titled 2012: The Science and Pseudoscience of the Apocalypse 

Basically a physicist debunked "all" the theories of the world ending tomorrow.

1. The Mayan calender was cyclical...52 year cycles. Simply put they could have gone extinct before they wrote the next cycle. In reality they did not have the means to map the stars in the sky therefore couldn't predict eminent disaster.

2. Pole reversal takes 1000 years. It is not spontaneous and therefore we'd have plenty of time to adjust.

3. Solar Flares while they will cause some power failures they will never be strong enough to wipe out the earth. The Sun's activity is monitored and we are actually in a period on less activity and also the flare bursts happen sparatically and therefore cannot be predicted on an exact date.

4. Planet X...if it was going to hit us tomorrow we'd see it in the sky already. It would be visible to the naked eye as the brightest object out there.

5. The planets aligning has happened many times in the history of the earth so we should have been obliterated several times by now.

Now I say "all" in quotations because they did not mention the zombie apocalypse, OR Satan rising from the depths of hell to commit mass homicide. Well Mr. physicist?


But I jest! 

Still, everyone I know is skipping work and staying home to be with family and friends. or... partying until the world ends. JUST IN CASE. "End of the world" parties. Now there's a funny idea.Now, I firmly do not believe the world is ending. Yet. However I shall be having my own "end of the world" party (as is everybody)... and renaming it the "Rise of the Antichrist" party, and at that party, rock of all types shall be played. and metal. And I shall drink cranberry juice because it looks like blood. And I shall don my mermaid tail because apparently mermaids are of the devil (I know not why, and I just can't be bothered to look it up)

Why am I doing this? Because this will scare my entire somewhat-Buddhist/Atheist family into thinking that I am a devil/Satan worshipper. And that is funny. Yes.


Ok I'm not that evil lol... it'd give me poor father a heart attack .__.

What's everyone gonna be doing tomorrow?

Odd mermaid dreams.

OK.

So I do this thing where I record my dreams so I can remember them in more detail, and so that eventually i can have lucid dreaming (the ability to be aware that you're dreaming so that you can control them).

The most recent one that I had was ... I saved a baby indo-pacific dolphin and took it to a rehabilitation place... And a bunch of people wanted to touch and poke it. But it wouldn't leave my side because it was scared... And then the next night I dreamt that the baby dolphin I saved grew into a merman with a dolphin tail and my time of death was soon... I looked out my window from a Miami suite and everything was underwater... Yet the hotel I was in was located at a beach... On the beach there was a banshee siren that came for me. The dolphin boy (a boy because he wasn't a full grown man) tried to save me because I saved him.

Anybody know what this means?

Anyway, I'm gonna post up a few of my weird mermaid dreams here for your enjoyment.

1: I was playing on my very first PlayStation game, the little mermaid 2:return to the sea. the first level i was sucked into the video game and i became Ariel. it was so cool because my hair was red just like hers and even had a cute little realistic pouf! if any of you guys played the game (I'm pretty old but this was like when i was very young) the first level is when you are in Atlantica and just trying to get used to manoeuvring controls. so I'm in atlantica and my mission was to find the trident (like in the game) and Sebastian's shell-phone (not in the game but you had to do something else with him). i find all that i needed and returned the items to King Triton and Sebastian. i received a pearl as a reward from King Triton, and Sebastian changed the background music from the main intro, to under the sea (just like the game) i swim into my room and find my mother putting away my laundry when i realise "wait a sec I'm still a mermaid...I'M UNDERWATER." so i finish helping my mom put away the laundry and swim outside to meet up with kakashi, Naruto, sakura and sasuke (from Naruto) and the practise of the way was to stay underwater for as long as you can (which made no sense but its a dream, its not supposed to make sense.) I am paired up with sasuke and was walk (not swim) to this underwater theme park which was weird because it was sunny and snowing but we were still underwater. and then a whirlpool appears and sucks everything in like a black hole.

2: I was a mermaid and i was swimming just under the waves when suddenly i got attacked my another mermaid. i turn around to avoid her sound wave attack, turn towards her and circled my arms until i had a ball of energy and i pushed it in her direction (almost like Kamehameha and Hadouken combined? DBZ AND STREETFIGHTER? ANYONE?) i turned around to swim away before the attack hit her. i escaped into a nearby cave, where a pod of mermaids was hiding. i heard someone say "protect every mermaid" and they took me in even though i wasn't part of their pod. I noticed something off in the distance. my attack missed her and my ball of energy accumulated enough energy over time to become a huge super ball. it was headed towards a sort of stone fortress. we were in an abyss so i assume it was an underground volcano. it hit the fortress volcano and sea serpents/snakes swam out and was headed in our direction. they were quite large (imagine Voldemort's snake horcrux but 10 times thicker and longer). they seized hold of our bodies and took us to an underground cave where the volcano fortress was. and evil mermaid lived there with her pet snakes. she lined us up in a circle and a leader of my old tribe was there (Caterina from 'Lost voices' novel). the evil mermaid was the girl that Caterina and her pod had saved in the first novel but she was quite a beach. she gathered all of the pods of mermaids so that she could be queen mermaid. i refused and she sent her giant serpents to attack me! the rest of the dream was almost like a video-game where the snakes mopped out of holes and they sent mini snakes to attack unless i flicked rocks at them. the serpent attacks were venom wrapped in bubbles. her shark boys became sharks and also tried to attack me and the mermaids. one serpent swam up to me and started hissing at me! i made clicked sounds and it looked at me funny... even cocked its head like "What are you doing." the girls saw and decided to do the same. the snakes must have liked the clicking. i reached out my hand to tickle its chin like a cat and it stopped being aggressive. instead of attacking it rolled onto its stomach and became submissive. the shark boys continued to attack and i smack my fin in one of their faces so that eventually they became human boys and drowned. i hid in a little crevice between two rocks. then another shark boy came up and lead me to an underground tunnel where i could escape.

3: Continuing from above the next night... we both got caught by scientists and were kept in a tiny tank. the merman-shark boy was actually officer penguin. and we were waiting for someone to come in and break us out like in the 'splash' movie.

4: my school became flooded (apocalyptic stuff). i felt the water enter my lungs (but i could still breathe), and cold water on my body. it was dark and stormy. i think i became a mermaid because i had to swim a thousand miles underwater until i reached some barren arctic landscape where it was thundering.

5: i became an understudy for Sierra Boggess who plays Ariel in 'the little mermaid' on Broadway (and Christine in 'Phantom of the Opera 25th anniversary' and 'Love Never Dies') she couldn't make it to one of the shows because she was sick so i became Ariel. so i reenacted the entire Broadway show. which was pretty awesome.

6: i am Ariel again and i had to find melody (Ariel's child.. which would make her my child in the dream). i jump into the sea and my legs morphed into a tail. Every time i went further and deeper into the ocean a flash back would happen of Ariel and Eric of when they first met. when they end I'm back underwater. i continue to swim forward and deeper into the ocean until i wake up.

7:  i found myself in a circular bridal suite that had a secret massage way to the sea. my spirit split from my body and my spirit saw my body walk to the middle of the room. the room changed into the middle on the ocean. there was a thin layer of ice above the water that cracked. I saw an evil old woman (in the shape of a mermaid) in the mirror facing my body. it finally broke and i saw (and felt) my body submerge into a cold, icy grave. because i was a spirit still somehow connected to the body, i also felt myself drown and freeze. it was a weird feeling, like the feeling i just described... your lungs filling with water, except it was ice water. the thin layer of ice repaired itself.

Anyway that's just a few of my mermaid dreams. Later on I'll post a new post dedicated to Phantom of the Opera dreams. x)

The Secret!

Good morning guys!
Alright a few things I wanted to get off my chest.

1) If one more person decides to start that "happy holidays vs merry Xmas" shit, I'll just greet you with a "fuck you" instead of something nice for the holidays. Not even a "Hi how are you." NOPE. How's that sound?

2) I DESPISE BULLIES WITH A PASSION.
 I was told by my niece that she gets bullied in school. She's only 7 wtf. And the principals and teachers don't do anything about it. I'm gonna have to march up to her school and demand to speak to the principal. (This was the same school I got picked at too when I was a kid.) I ALSO got wind of one of my old friends (well I guess I can call her an acquaintance now) wanting to beat up my younger sister for something so petty. WTF. What are you? A kindergartener? You've gotta turn to violence to solve problems now? DON'T FUCKING TOUCH MY FAMILY.

3) I believe in God and science. I don't believe in religion. Don't force religion down my throat, they're a set of rules the higher-ups created just to control people.

Ok done. Anyway let's talk about something better :)  I've just been so thankful lately! Normally I'm not, but I've been doing this sort of "secret" thing. Basically, in order for you to get whatever you want, you've just gotta be thankful and the universe will grant you whatever you want! And when the universe grants you whatever you want, you become more thankful and it grants you more things.. INFINITE THINGS! INFINITE GRATITUDE....well that's the gist of it. There's more but I will not bore you with details. I'll list a few good things that have happened after being so thankful!

1) So I've always wanted to have an awesome blog. At least I even have access to a computer for a blog!

I've been trying to edit by blog for a while now. I've wanted some sort of Victorian Princess-y Mermaid-y interior-of-Titanic thing. So I went to look for some help. One thing leads to another and lo and behold, my friend in the states (who I personally think is very smart, artistic, and intellectual) made my blog for me. Gosh I was so thankful, I kept on thinking "How can he be so generous? I'm normally such a huge bitch!" Nevertheless, he did it :) He even put my painting in as part of my blog! She's beautiful! THANKYOU Charles for designing my blog! :') This boy, I love dearly. :SQUEE: I really cannot thank him enough! *ok getting over emotional again*

2) I want to be pampered like crazy. Selfish aren't I? At least I'm with someone who can do that whenever he wants to.

My health isn't all that great (lactose intolerant, low blood pressure, frequent headaches, iron deficiency...) and I've been going to see the optometrist, doctors, medical test centers, and the dentist. Who takes me to these places? My fiance :') (Lets call him Officer Penguin) this boy cares about me so much, I can't even. How did I find someone that puts up with so much of my shit? I've been given an iPhone for my birthday from him (and it's awesome!), 3 Assassin's Creed novels, a bunch of mermaid novels... and he makes me dinner too <3 and takes me out to romantic dates... What did I ever do to deserve his kindness? I mean everyone I know, and even HE knows, how selfish (and childish) I am. I remember one Saturday I had to take my blood test and he woke up early at 7 for me to drive me to the center. And then I got hungry so when we finished he bought me breakfast and was playing Phantom of the Opera in the car :my favourite!: I just started crying because of how over emotional I was getting.... like, this boy will do anything for me. I'm so grateful! I love him so much!

3) I want connections for awesome stuff... (admit it. Who doesn't?) But because I was so thankful for the above already (point 2), that I get more stuff!

- Like my said my health isn't all that great. Then a few weeks ago, I became friends with a nutrition expert (let's call her Snow Moon), and she made a few changes to my diet (free, ok? And to an Asian person that's like.. awesome). I am immensely grateful for it.
 
- I got new shampoo and conditioner from my hair stylist. wasn' free but it's hella-awesome! The brand is called Angel, and I am using their Marine Depth Spa shampoo and conditioner.... OMG. After using it for a month, my hair looks TEN TIMES BETTER and feels better. And it's "derived from the seep-sea plants." Best part? After I wash my hair IT SMELLS LIKE THE OCEAN. :SQUEE!: The smell lasts forever, I feel like a mermaid! 
[Sea-gusta. Disclaimer though: I'm not getting paid for this. There's more info on the website if you wanna know more about it: http://www.angel-haircare.com/products/product.php?product_id=42 ] AND NOW MY HAIR FEELS LIKE MERMAID-AWESOME! THANKYOUUU <3
 
- I got sea vegetables just yesterday. FOR FREE. VEGAN FRIENDLY, CONTAINS OMEGA3, AND CHOCK FULL OF ANTIOXIDANTS... whoa. and its made out of red marine algae and Irish moss. x) Thanks, little sis (let's call her Lolita..even though she's, like, 20).

- Did I mention I'm getting a mermaid tail? Thankyou, Merberry!
- Did I mention that I got to talk to my long time mermaid idol, Tracy Hines, over Etsy? AIE!! <3 I LOVE YOU, TRACY!! #shoutout #hashtagsdontwork
- Did I mention that I am friends with a real estate agent? Whatwhat!! We had dinner a few months ago :) she's so nice and helpful <3
- Did I mention that.....

4) ... I'm a maid of honour? Yep, you heard me! Already thankful and honoured to be one!

My fairytale friend (let's call her Little Red) is getting married and I promised I'd be there for her. So the first few months of her wedding plans, things were quite rough but I was there to provide emotional support. In return for giving her special treatment, she's been giving ME special treatment! I've been DYING to find myself a mermaid necklace for a while and she decided to give me one! I squee-some-more! <3 I love her to bits. So thankful to have a friend like her. But because I've been so thankful, all of the things I wanted best for her is actually coming true. Give me a WHAT-WHAT! Continuing off point 3, I instantly got wind of a family friend who just became a wedding consultant... MORE CONNECTIONS!

That's just some of a few things I wanted to gloat about :3

Gosh I'm so happy :) So what are you guys thankful for?

Bah Humbug.. and more ramblings

Ah Christmas. The season of love, peace, goodwill towards men.

But honestly? Does anyone ever really practice this?

Anyway the point I'm trying to get at here is, I am especially bothered this Christmas because of the recent deaths of innocent school children. While we sit comfortably with our families, eating our meals with them, sharing laughter, opening gifts, there are parents that won't get to spend time with their child because of some bastard. Mother of Pearl! They won't even get to see their child open up their gifts. They'll never be able to see their child smile. They won't get to hold their child, hear them laugh and sing... because of a deranged fucking monster. No love, no peace, no goodwill towards men. I slap my fins in anger.

And do you know what irks me most? When people bring religion into it, saying thing's like...
"They do not allow God into their schools." Yes they do. All schools allow practice of every religion. Every religion has a God. And even if you don't practice a religion they don't go shoving it down your throat, it's a free country. But it's not even about that.
"God allowed for it to happen."
"The Devil possessed him, he was not with the Lord."


^ I call bullshit on that. The Devil doesn't go parading through a school full of children showering them with bullets. These fucked up humans did. 
When YOU do something bad, it's not because of the Devil, it's because of the poor choices YOU made. When YOU do something bad, YOU say "God allowed for it to happen." NO. YOU MADE IT HAPPEN. 
Honestly? Stop blaming supernatural beings for YOUR ACTIONS. YOUR CHOICES.
What does religion have to do with the murder of school children?? IT REALLY DOESN'T. Angers me to no end.

In the words of a close friend... let's call her Crystal Meth. "It's a completely unattributable set of morals to attach to this kind of tragedy. It's irrelevant to most tragedies really, unless there's some kind of fucking holy war or something :| "
RAAGH. *COUGH*



Rant, end. New topic.

Anyway. It's the season of Giving. So I've given up most of my time to help my mother with chores, grocery shopping, making way too many unnecessary trips to the dollar store... :like always:
I've also given some time to spend with a few friends.
a birthday party, 3 christmas dinners... I'm going to spend extra time with family.

And I've given up some time to my fiance :3 As of late we've been religiously watching CSI Miami... *we've hit the least season... so nerve wrecking!!*
Ok besides the unrealistic timelines and gadgets, I really like the plot, stories, characters... Favourite being David Caruso's character. :3 Now I'm just waiting on CSI Season 11 to come in the mail... but I miss Gil Grissom :[ *yeahyeah I know, the lag. I'm way behind.*

I'm giving gifts too, but that's a.... given! badumbum! What are you guys giving?

WELP, I'm off to make lunch, put away groceries, and read Assassin's Creed! 
*I'd honestly play the game if I could... but I have motion sickness :( *

Mermaid Tales

Ok. So I recently got myself a mermaid tail. :squee!: Courtesy of Merberry Tails Quite childish, I know.
:I refuse to grow up: 

But here's the thing... I CAN SWIM IN IT. YES. Now I can live my childhood dream of frolicking with the fishes and partying under the sea with Sebastian!
The only problem I have is that I can't swim properly... silly me right? How can I be a fish if I can't swim?

However! I've been teaching myself and I think I've improved! Now I can freestyle swim! A big round of applause for me!
... I just need a certain lifeguard friend (let's call him the Chrome Poseidon) to teach me how to dolphin kick and use the butterfly stroke.